Thanks so much for submitting great questions! Hopefully these are informative and useful! And sorry this is a long post. What do conversations with Arie look like about Eric at this stage in life? At this point they are pretty simple. We say thank you for daddy in our prayers every night, we talk about… Continue reading FAQ Survey Says!

Back in October, Van Andel Institute had their annual Hope on the Hill fundraiser. This year they asked a group of people to be in a video that talked about hope, and I was lucky enough to be included.  All our stories are cut together in a really beautiful way, and I really loved how… Continue reading Hope on the Hill

ENFP : Extrovert, Intuition, Feeling and Perception. I joined a grief group recently. Honestly, I feel like I already handle my grief in a very healthy way. I have a group of close friends and cousins that I talk to regularly, I tell Arie about Eric, I know my triggers and how to avoid them…I… Continue reading ENFP

Wow. It has been a shockingly long time since I’ve written a blog post. My excuses include the following: Busy season at work (August-ish through November-ish). We’re talking 12+ hour days, driving all over the state, not able to stop working to even put Arie to bed some nights. See above reason. Now that things… Continue reading Busy Season and Christmas Season

Let’s be real. I’m not a runner. Completing a marathon was never something on my bucket list. I’m walking running walking and running the Chicago Marathon to raise money for Van Andel Institute, that’s it. Training has been going horribly. Between planning the Eagles for Eric golf outing, chasing a toddler, and being in our… Continue reading Why I Run

Funny story. I actually forgot about needing to get a headstone for Eric for a really long time…we’re talking easily over six months. In my defense, I am not a cemetery visitor. As I’ve said before, I went once shortly after the funeral, had a panic attack and didn’t go back. Then one day I… Continue reading Written In Stone

Man, it has been a minute since I’ve updated this blog! Perhaps you recall that the months of May through July are ridiculously slightly unpleasant. As a reminder, it goes something like this: – May: D-day – June: Eric’s b-day – June: Father’s day – July: Anniversary D-day in Disney was actually a blast. It… Continue reading Let’s Catch Up

I wrote this post on July 11, 2016. I have been avoiding writing this post for a while now. But my mind keeps pestering me to get it done! I both want to write about our last days together, and at the same time am dreading it. To be completely honest, I want to do… Continue reading D-Day : 5-23-16

Well, tomorrow is d-day. It’s like a b-day, only opposite… First of all, thank you to everyone who has already reached out in some way to let me know you’re thinking of me. May has been a bit of a shit-show, let’s be honest. So tomorrow I’m going to Disney World. That seemed like a… Continue reading #SaddestDayHappiestPlace

This picture was taken in Ann Arbor, at my friend Ashley’s house. She lives 15 minutes from the hospital, and I spent many a night at her house while Eric was inpatient at U of Michigan. So many in fact, that I continue to refer to her guest bedroom as “my room”. I hated leaving… Continue reading A Mother and a Wife